Saturday, June 9, 2007

Control

I am getting static now from Kate and Cindy. I am not trying to do something to avoid them or avoid anything I should be doing. I am just trying to continue doing this so that I can get better and do something that I enjoy. I am trying to rediscover something that was important to me in the past and could be in the future. The problem is two-fold. With Kate, if I get online in order to write something, I keep her from her time online. So if I am online, she can't get online. Her time online involves her entertainment and downtime where she interchanges with her friends and sees and does things that are important to her. With Cindy, when I go online, it separates me from her so she can't gather me around her. Then, if I am online I am not doing the things she wants me to do. So Cindy's problem is control; Kate's problem is that if I am online it prevents her from doing what she wants to do.

Three adult children: two first children and one only child. This is an old saw, but an accurate one. We usually get along well and we enjoy each other a lot of the time. However, when we are together there becomes a limit beyond which we are trying to jockey for control. Music is the foremost battleground. Yesterday I had been driving in my car and listening to a jazz cd. When I came home, we came out to get in the car to drive to Dunwoody. Kate wanted to drive, so I got in the back. When the cartrip started my music came on. Kate immediately changed the music and started to put her ipod in so she could listen to her music. Cindy intervened and requested that we listen to Dave-FM. I wondered aloud if we could listen to the cd in my cd player. That is ignored. So we drove up to Dunwoody and I sat in the back.

When we started back home, I was driving and Kate was in the back. I put the cd back on the system. Cindy requested that we listen to Dave FM again. Kate requested that the sound be turned off in the back. So the battlefield was marked off. I wonder what it would look like if we had a monitor on this to determine how much of the time is monopolized by whom. Interesting idea.

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