God, Science and other things

I am trying very hard to determine how to quantify my value. I am trying to take note of the things I have done which have some value to others. Today, I bought the component parts for a meal for the youth of our church this afternoon. I made a casserole and a salad and bought some ice cream sandwiches and iced tea. The kids didn't much like the casserole. They turned their nose up at the casserole and mostly ate the salad, which was substantially iceberg lettuce and carrots. I looked around and realized the church has reduced some of its membership from before, and it seems as if the ones who have abandoned us are some of my friends. That is sad.

In the face of all this, it is hard to keep your sense of value when everyone seems to be abandoning your place of significance. I have always held to the belief that despite my feelings of doubt, there would ultimately be victory. But when your friends abandon you and your place of significance, it shakes your foundations.

I am not about to change at this point, but it does bring these things into the open and, hopefully, makes you look hard at the underpinnings of your beliefs.

I am not going to Steven Hawking my life and cut everything loose because it is convenient. It is too easy for a smart guy, who built a significant curriculum vitae and clearly showed a substantial self-confidence, but isn't the end result of such self-confidence just the belief that one is perfect the way they are? After all, he is a physicist, educated at one of the highest levels of higher English education, living among the academia. Why would he need anything else?

Oh, that's right. I forgot. That will go unsaid. At any rate, he is not a theologian. He was not educated to determine for the rest of us whether or not there is a God or whether he is responsible for the universe. If it means anything, I don't think I will rely on an English physicist to provide me with theory on God, how he works or his limits.

Assuming a "Big Bang" for the creation of this universe, I don't really think it matters from a scientific standpoint if that the bang was started by God. I read something that said that some scientists were concerned when the Big Bang Theory were concerned that the theory implied a divine causation for the universe. No, it only matters to me, and others like me, who have faith that God created this universe, controls the universe, and will lead us to reconciliation with Him at some future date. That may not mean anything to Mr. Hawking, but that is ok. He doesn't mean that much to me.